Snow day with the best friend. Playing Super Mario64, stoned, and eating leftovers from Christmas dinner!
I learned a little bit today about how my best friend truly feels about me. Kinda sucks knowing but hey, when you trust someone you invite betrayal, I guess that’s what I did. Go figure. I got denied for my medical insurance, so I wont be able to see my therapist like I need to. Kinda sucks, I don’t know how much more of myself I can take. I think my dog, is the only one who wont betray me. Kinda sad but true. I had an interview today to be a manager at my store, went well. I’ll know by Thursday if I got the job, only problem is Ill be transferred out and into a new store. Oh well I guess. I could use some new changes.
First I would like to share that not all fucking Mexicans are working with the fucking sex trade or the drug trade. Way to be racist. I love how you sit there and say I’m kinda dating someone yet you fucked another person and consider yourself good. Gah!
Then as for my best friend, I feel like we’re growing apart. I haven’t talked to her in so long, she comes over tells me she needs to talk to me. But doesn’t. Doesn’t matter what happens I’ve been getting short with her or some sort of attitude. I just can’t handle people constantly telling well he’s better because of this or that. I’m sick of people thinking I’m a horrible person because I don’t take shit from anyone. Someone told my best friend that I must be self-less because I gave my twins up for adoption, she said no she’s actually selfish, this was just the one thing that she wasn’t being selfish about. How am I selfish? I only look out for myself because no one is reliable. How am I selfish, when we almost got busted with weed and hid everything in my possession so if we got caught I was the one holding it all so it wouldn’t jeopardize your chances of being a teacher? How am I selfish, when I raised my baby brother because my mom couldn’t do it? How am I selfish, when I took care of my ex because god for bid could he take care of himself? Or, when someone asks me to do something I instantly do it, for the most part? I’m so fucking tired of people calling me a horrible person when I’m not. Sorry that I see through your BULLSHIT and wont tolerate it!!!